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It is a long run in life. As short as life may be. No matter what people try to do to in order to have a good life, it always fails, we always have regrets. As Humans we need to try our best to strive forth and enjoy as much as we can the moments we have.

Not a day goes by that I think of you, nor that I wish I could have you in my life more, have you back, to be able to see your smile every day. It's impossible to describe my emotions, for there are so many that I have. I hate the fact that I feel I've lost you, I hate the fact I could possibly have you. But we are handed so many things in life that end up screwing us over and taking chances away from what we could have.

As times goes by

I regret that it is seldom with you.


My days have grown long, yet short. Constantly busy, yet so free. As this feeling of confinement is returning to me, I fear the day I get the call. Whether HTT HD, CF, MS, etc. I fear the loss of time. And it is causing me to re-think. As the agoraphobia kicks in all I can ask is . . . OWH!? MA QUANDO COSTA UNA BANANA QUI IN PALERMO?!

Se Cerchi Mi Vedi

Io voglio regalarti la mia vita.
Chiedo tu cambi tutta la mia vita, ora.
Ti do questa notizia in conclusione.
Notizia è l’anagramma del mio nome, vedi.
E so che serve tempo, non lo nego.
Anche se in fondo tempo non ce n’è, ma se...

Cerco lo vedo.
L’amore va veloce e tu stai indietro.
Se cerchi mi vedi.
Il bene più segreto sfugge all’uomo che non guarda avanti, mai.

Ricevo il tuo contrordine speciale.
Nemico della logica morale.
Opposto della fisica normale.
Geometria degli angoli nascosti, nostri.
E adesso!
Ripenso a quella foto insieme.
Decido che non ti avrei mai perduta,
mai perduta, perché ti volevo troppo.

Mancano i colpi al cuore.
Quel poco tanto di dolore.
Quell’attitudine di chi ricorda tutto, ma se...

Guardo, lo vedo.
Il mondo va veloce e tu vai indietro.
Se cerchi, mi vedi.
Il bene più segreto sfugge all’uomo che non guarda avanti, mai.

Dietro le lacrime che mi hai nascosto.
Negli spazi di un segreto opposto.
Resto fermo e ti aspetto.
Da qui non mi è possibile.
No non rivederti più.
Se lontana non sei stata mai.

Se cerco lo vedo.
L’amore va veloce e tu stai indietro.
Se cerchi mi vedi.
Il bene più segreto sfugge all’uomo che non guarda avanti, mai.

Sei Un Dolor, Un Amore, Un Spirito
Che Sei Una Pezza da Cuore Mei
Stop! MAI Dimentica.

i think i love you

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

Wow forgot about blogger! Bahaha

Russel Peters new show is the funniest thing. We hang out way to much and way to late ps.
Growing mushrooms is going to be fucking fabulous! Morels and Oysters and Shitake and Portabello's and Miatake and Hericium Erinaceus and Ganoderma Lucidum and so many more year round!!!! Bahhhhh! *brain explosion*

Need fluse! Lots of fluse! FLUSE LIKE A JEW!! BAHAHA

Canadian Tire scares me. Nutters = <3. 100g's of Saffron for 10 bucks makes me happy.

The Italians are cute, But their still from way north, that makes me scared a bit. they can be kinda crazy. . . /not all there. Freaking polentoné

Classes are the death of me. thus, not going is the life of me. BAHAHA

Jen = <3 + 3 + 3 Jen+Dr. Grossman = funny times. Jen + Adam + Carley + Socio = MESS

Hearts

txt Hot to 55355

Nah, I don't have to.
Cause all I need is you.

Watching southpark
Baking Breads
Staying up till 3am making Challah, Rye, Whole Wheats, French Rolls, and of course the Italian Loafs = <3
"OMG . . . ITS GONE BAD! . . . SMELL IT! . . . IT'S. . IT'S SOUR!"
"Uhh, ya, it's sourdough starter"
"OHHH! aw'righ' aw'righ"


Sei solo tu.


eijè no'me putze parlaré' da tant'e kosé. Ma tu ti'ja kapisce a mei, volglio guardaré alla sua faccia, dentro gli occhio voi, voglio sentire alla sua perfuma, mi devi vederre a lei.

Grief

Today was a lot easier than I thought, but who knows, Wednesday will be the real test.
Thanks for being such a good listener. Having you in my life is all that counts.

Tu ti'ja capiscé k 6 lu sool amuré k tengè.
E sei potrebbe dire quando amore ho per lei,
il mondo cadrebbe.

Thank you.

Loss

Requiem æternam dona eis, Domine,

et lux perpetua luceat eis.

Te decet hymnus Deus, in Sion,

et tibi reddetur votum in Ierusalem.

Exaudi orationem meam;

ad te omnis caro veniet.

Requiem æternam dona eis, Domine,

et lux perpetua luceat eis.

Life is a cycle. Whether we like it or not, whether we want something afterwards, it's just a part of the cycle. I'm sad to loose you, but I'm glad your suffering will soon be over. I'm anthropomorphized by sorrow, but overcome with relief. I hope you will rest in peace.

Ab omni malo,
Ab omni peccato,
Ab ira tua,
A subitanea et improvisa morte,
Ab insidiis diaboli,
Ab ira, et odio, et omni mala voluntate,
A spiritu fornicationis,
A fulgure et tempestate,
A flagello terraemotus,
A peste, fame, et bello,
A morte perpetua,
Per mysterium sanctae incarnationis tuae,
Per adventum tuum,
Per nativitatem tuam,
Per baptismum et sanctum ieiunium tuum,
Per crucem et passionem tuam,
Per mortem et sepulturam tuam,
Per sanctam resurrectionem tuam,
Per admirabilem ascensionem tuam,
Per adventum Spiritus sancti Paracliti,
In die iudicii,

Peccatores,
te rogamus, audi nos.
Ut nobis parcas,
te rogamus, audi nos.
Ut nobis indulgeas,
te rogamus, audi nos.

Ut ad veram poenitentiam nos perducere
digneris,
Ut Ecclesiam tuam sanctam regere, et
conservare digneris,
Ut Domnum apostolicum, et omnes
ecclesiasticos ordines in sancta religione
conservare digneris,
Ut inimicos sanctae Ecclesiae humiliare
digneris,
Ut Regibus et Principibus christianis pacem
et veram concordiam donare digneris,
Ut cuncto populo christiano pacem et
unitatem largiri digneris,
Ut nosmetipsos in tuo sancto servitio
confortare, et conservare digneris,
Ut mentes nostras ad coelestia desideria
erigas,
Ut omnibus benefactoribus nostris sempiterna
bona retribuas,
Ut animas nostras, fratrum, propinquorum,
et benefactorum nostrorum ab aeterna
damnatione eripias,
Ut fructus terrae dare et conservare
digneris,
Ut omnibus fidelibus defunctis requiem
aeternam donare digneris,
Ut nos exaudire digneris,
Fili Dei,

Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi,
parce nobis, Domine.
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi,
exaudi nos, Domine.
Agnus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi,
miserere nobis.

Christe, audi nos.
Christe, exaudi nos.

Bestest Weekend

Title, basically says it.

Cooking with you, Dancing with you, Laughing with you, Sleeping next to you.

Your my favorite thing. Cute. <3

You. and only You

Im so glad to be back.
Spending countless nights and hours with you makes me happy.
It's crazy when two can randomly just mix so well.
I look forward to this weekend. Friday to Sunday. It will be Glamorous, fierce, and Fabulous!

Your gentle manlyness is all that I wake for.


Heart you.

Tryin'

Ive been thinkin bout
All the times you told me
Youre so ful of doubt
You just cant let it be
But I know
If you keep comin back for more
Then Ill keep on tryin
Keep on tryin

And Ive been drinkin now
Just a little too much
And I dont know how
I can get in touch with you
Now theres only one thing
For me to do, thats to
To get home to you

And I feel so satiesfied when
I can see you smile
I want to confide in
All that is true, so ill
Keep on tryin im
Through with lyin
Just like the sun above
Ill come shinin, trough
Oh yes ill
Keep on tryin, im
Tired of cryin
I got to find a way
To get on home to you

Ive been thingin bout
All the times you held me
I never heard you shout
The flow of energy was so fine
Now I think Ill lay it on the line
And keep on tryin
To get home to you

And I feel so satiesfied when
I can see you smile
I want to confide in
All that is true, so ill
Keep on tryin im
Through with lyin
Just like the sun above
Ill come shinin, trough
Yes I will
Oh yes ill
Keep on tryin, im
Tired of cryin
I got to find a way
To get on home to you